merp

I have difficulty expressing myself sometimes.
it's a good thing that lots of writers came before me to preemptively describe how I would feel at this moment in time
of course that thought in itself makes me think of Salinger--
"[ . . .]you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles." - Catcher in the Rye

everything goes back to Salinger these days since I've been rereading all of the Glass stories

(yes, this blog is meant to be about my transition but I'm a literary transman so this stuff is important too)

okay so I feel
um
I feel like a 13 year old boy
awkward and wanting to touch some titties
hm
ok tried that, time for quotes
"My heart was a habitation large enough for many guests, but lonely and chill, and without a household fire. I longed to kindle one! It seemed not so wild a dream" - Nathanial Hawthorne, The Scarlet Letter
"A sensible man ought to find sufficient company in himself." - Bronte, Wuthering Heights

"It is not time or opportunity that is to determine intimacy;-- it is disposition alone. Seven years would be insufficient to make some people acquainted with each other, and seven days are more than enough for others." Austin, Sense and Sensibility

okay done
feelings expressed